crying

sometimes i wanna cry
sometimes i wanna yell and howl until my lungs give out
sometimes i feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders
that i live a meaningless existence
that i will forever stay in a monotonous existence
and the same thing will go on day after day
and i can see my future all laid out before me
and it is beautiful
and perfect
lit in the suburbs like something out of a dream
it scares me
and i feel like crying when i think of the perfection of it

sick and tired

I am sick and tired of this...this ridiculous need of dustins to always be right. I recognize that while I am not always right, would it be so hard for him to just lie and go along w/ it?
I mean... a lot of the times he is wrong, LIKE WAY WRONG...like out somewhere in left field...and i just let him win. because, i know that you just have to pick your battles...but i can honestly sometimes barely stand it, it is demeaning and hurtful, and i am so sick of feeling like i am somehow inferior to him. I feel like I take care of everything, organize everything, and just once i would like to be just a little surprised...well i cant say that he does surprise me sometimes. i just, i just wish that i could just win one once in a while...ya know what i mean?